Damp boring day

Haiz..wat a damp boring day...me alone stay in alpha without him feel so torturing..he had choose to go back to hometon n i had choose to stay here, facing loneliness by myself...stupid me...although i did study at here..but i was lonely te be alone..feel unhapy..but what can i do...ntg but complain my loneliness by writing in here..hoho..wat i do for the whole day? study n watching pps on the same time..look at my hp wishing he to chat wit me..hoping to see he say miz me..watelse?? eat bread for mu breakfast n lunch at the same time, somemore eat a terrible dinner, or should i say i have no mood to eat also..feel like eating ntg..i alsp prefer to juz stay in my room than in the living room...most of the time i stayin my room..feel more comfortable...there are my bed n pillow to acompany me..n my books or laptop..however i still feel boring ..ntg for me to enjoy but just boring n loneliness..oh god..feel like dying..damp boring...i suppose tmr will be the same also..help...i dunwan to be boring n loneliness..i hate it...wuwu...